I'm feelin' 26...

Next week I’m turning 26.

Lilac Bakery...if you haven’t been START the car.

Lilac Bakery...if you haven’t been START the car.

I’ve always loved my birthday. Coming together with friends and family to celebrate is something I enjoy, especially if whatever we’re celebrating includes food.

So many people constantly say to me “you’re so young!” - and they’re right, I am.

However, this birthday has been a bit more difficult for me to wrap my head around. While 26 is so young (I KNOW), I’ve had a difficult time coming around on the fact that I’ll now officially be closer to 30 then 20.

While I’m perfectly aware that age is just a number, it was difficult in my mind to wrap my head around where I’m at in my life at the age of 26.

When I was younger (by younger I mean like, high school) I always thought I’d be married by 24, having kids by 26, and completely have it all figured out.

Good joke 16 year old Emma.

While I was struggling a little bit thinking about those things and how far I am from having anything figured out, I also took a moment to think about the massive changes that have taken place in my life in the last year, the person I’m growing into, and the things that I truly value and cherish.

I can confidently say that I’ve come more into myself in the last year then I think any other year. I’m trying to truly value things that make me happy and trying to put myself first more. Both things I struggled with in the past.

I also stopped giving so much weight to what people thought about me. This used to drive me INSANE, and while this is a work in progress I absolutely have improved on it.

I’ve also really started to look forward into my future, what I want out of it, what kind of jobs and companies I want to work for, what causes I’m passionate about, etc.

When I think about these things, it makes me excited for 26, and proud of the progress I’ve made up until this point. I’m excited about the person I’m becoming the older I get, and TBH if I think about the future I thought I should have at this age I’m so grateful I’m not quite there yet.

Every new year in our lives provides the opportunity to grow, and that’s something we should try our best to be excited about! No, we may not be where we thought we’d be by a certain age, or where our friends are, or the girl you stock on Instagram. But making the most of where you are currently and being proud of what you HAVE achieved is so so important.

So, cheers to 26, cheers to continuous growth, and cheers to what’s to come!

Do more of what makes YOU happy.

What makes you happy?

Not spending time with your boyfriend (cause like ya obviously that’s great and of course that makes you happy I’m obsessed with mine!) what makes YOU on your OWN truly happy?

This is something I’ve had a hard time figuring out in my early 20’s. For a long time, I was in a relationship that I let define my happiness, and I lost a lot of myself in that.

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Now, I’ve been trying to find things that make me, on my own, genuinely happy. Things that I do for myself, and not things that are based on other people to provide.

This is something I’m writing about because it’s something I’ve been struggling with a bit lately, and may need a bit of a reminder about to myself. I hope this can help you remember a few of those things for yourself as well!

R e a d i n g

I’ve always loved to read. Since I was little I would get so wrapped up in a book and completely forget that I’ve been reading for hours. I love a thriller, comedy, or biography, but really I’ll read just about any genre as long as I’m feeling captivated by it. I finished a book cover to cover for the first time in SO long the other day, and it felt amazing. It felt so good to find something that helped me genuinely disconnect from the world, and also my phone. I went onto the library website and put my name on the hold list for a bunch of best sellers. I know, the library seems old school, but honestly it’s such a great way to get books and have another one waiting for you right away, for free!

B l o g g i n g

Blogging is another thing that really does bring me genuine happiness. it’s a really great outlet to write about just about anything that’s on my mind, and connect with other amazing Winnipeg creatives. I completed a rhetoric and communications degree in university, and have always enjoyed writing, so blogging seemed like the perfect fit when I was missing writing as much as I did during my time in university.

C l e a n i n g

Ya this one is a bit weird. I have a really hard time sitting still and relaxing. Trust me, that’s also something I really enjoy doing, but it takes a lot for me to just sit still and do absolutely nothing. Cleaning is a task that allows me to completely turn my brain off and really accomplish something. I love the feeling of cleaning a room and looking around and having it just look better then it did before.

W o r k o u t

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There are times where just getting your ass up and getting to the gym is a lot harder then the actual workout. Once I get there and get it done, I always feel so much better then I did before. While working out isn’t exactly a passion of mine (wine, wine is a passion), once I do a workout I can truly admit I feel so much happier and ready to take on the day.

These are just a few of the things I do specifically for myself to bring myself happiness. What do you do for YOURSELF?

Actually have a Good Morning

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I’ve always considered myself a morning person. I typically wake up somewhere around 8 even on the weekends, and never really have too hard of a time starting to move first thing (it’s a little harder in the winter, obviously..)

Since I’ve been at home the last couple of months and my time has been my own to plan around for the most part, I originally found myself really motivated and ready to go.

As time went on, I continued to get more and more unmotivated, discouraged, and really had a difficult time being productive or using my time efficiently.

Finally, I decided enough was enough. I wanted to be making the most of my mornings to set myself up for top productivity and feeling good about myself all day. Lately, I’ve been listening to Lauyrn Evarts and her husband Michael’s podcast, The Skinny Confidential Him and Her podcast. Lauryn focuses a lot on the importance of her morning routine, and they recently interviewed Ed Mylett who spoke highly of his morning routine as well (as do many of their guests). Their podcast has such influential, interesting, and inspiring guests on, and I truly encourage everyone to give it a listen.

Before I dive into what I’ve been doing, I also want to mention that this doesn’t always happen. Sometimes my schedule changes a little, or, it just isn’t going to happen. However these are all things that I enjoy so much now that I’ve been doing them I find it weird not to do them at some point, it may just not be the exact same routine every morning (this is a goal I do want to get to, and something I’m working on)

OK - Here we go!


First things first right when I wake up I’m drinking water. Typically I try to have at least a glass right away as soon as I’m out of bed. This wakes me up, gets my body going, and starts hydrating me right away.

Recently I’ve started doing morning pages, and this is what typically comes next. This is basically a chance for me to get all of my thoughts out in one place so I’m not anxious or word vomiting or taking out my random thoughts on my boyfriend. I’ll write a couple of pages about whatever is going on in my mind, and then I also set a goal for the day, and mention something I’m grateful for.

What I do next changes. If I’m working out I typically like to go and do that right away. These day’s I’m into Orange Theory, so I’ll go off and do a class and when I get back the routine continues.

My hair during the entire morning routine…

My hair during the entire morning routine…

Once I’m home, it’s shower, body lotion, skin products, and ice rolling my face to decrease puffiness and tbh it really wakes me up and feels so good.

At this point while I’m ice rolling, I’ll typically cook breakfast, and listen to a podcast. I’m not going to lie, I listen to a lot of comedy or like, gossipy podcasts. I took a page out of Lauryn’s book, and now I’m starting my day off with something to feed my mind. I genuinely enjoy the Him and Her podcast, or Dax Shepdard’s to start the day. The Betches also have a podcast with a lot of really informative guests.

I go through phases where I eat the same thing for a few weeks at a time, and right now that’s pan fried spinach and mushrooms with a soft poached egg or two depending on how hungry I am. I love it and it’s usually just enough to get me through to a snack in the afternoon. The entire time I’m drinking water from a S’well and depending on how I’m feeling I’ll have a coffee with unsweetened almond milk or a lemon and ginger or peppermint tea.

After this I’ll check my to do list for the week (I’ll write this on Sunday evening and add/cross things off daily), and decide what I’m going to accomplish that day. Then I move to the laptop to blog, do research, look at jobs, etc.

This is how I’ve been starting my days pretty much everyday for the last month. Am I perfect? No. But you have to start somewhere and I’m fairly happy with the progress I’ve been making. My goal is to get to a place where I stay consistent with my morning routine, and I also want to begin incorporating meditation (something I’ve really struggled with in the past). I’m so curious hearing about other people’s morning routines and am dying to hear about yours! Share in the comments below.

Let's Talk

Yesterday was #bellletstalk.

Every year, I see the messages and think about the experiences I’ve had with mental health over the years, mental health struggles my friends and family members have gone through, and the amount of people struggling with and effected by mental health around the world.

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I feel like it’s important to put this message out there because I’ve been there. I’ve been the person who is too sad or defeated to get out of bed, or is too scared to tell anyone how I’m feeling out of fear of judgement or inconveniencing someone. I’m also the person who struggled in silence for way too long, and know now that I wish I had reached out or leaned on my family or friends in the past.

If you’re struggling, or feeling lost, know you aren’t alone. Know that you can reach out to someone and shouldn’t feel ashamed or judged. You may not feel it, but there is someone out there who cares about you and wants to help. Please don’t feel like you have to struggle in silence.

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I think it’s also important to touch on the fact that we also hold a responsibility to reach out and check on our friends, loved ones, and family members.

Life is busy, I get it.

If you think someone is struggling through something or isn’t okay, ASK. They may resist you, or deny it, but knowing that they have someone in their life to reach out to when they’re ready is so so important. Sending a quick text to check in or scheduling a coffee date to ask someone how they’re doing could change their life.

Finally, I think the importance of remembering that although #bellletstalk is a great way for us to be reminded that mental health awareness is extremely important, I think that it’s just as important to remember that mental health is something that should be recognized and talked about everyday. This is something that should be discussed on the regular.

These are just my thoughts, and while I’m in no way trying to bash or lessen the value of the work that #bellletstalk has done and the incredible support they’ve been able to provide for a lot of individuals.

So let’s remember to talk, everyday. Look out for our friends and recognize the importance of mental health, every. single. day.

So, that was 2018?

Lol, lets talk about how my last post was at the start of 2018…

Does that happen to anyone else? You set out your year with the intention to start something, this crazy unheard of thing that everyone actually does called a “new years resolution” (if you don’t sense the sarcasm here, please re read with a sarcastic tone), then all of a sudden it’s almost December and you’re still watching Grey’s Anatomy season 5.

My oops I skipped 2018 face.

My oops I skipped 2018 face.

My intention for 2018 was to enhance my career while also maintaining my blog, and the reality was that this didn’t happen. 2018 (I get that it isn’t over yet, but up to this point) kind of kicked my ass, in good ways and bad. Everything really seemed to be going somewhat swimmingly until a week ago when my newish job didn’t work out and suddenly everything changed, and it was a major kick to my ego.

I mean, HUGE.

Up until last week, I was kind of on auto pilot. I had changed careers leaving a place that I really loved to move into something that allowed me to fill my day with challenging work that had an amazing work/life balance (this is extremely important to me because, you know, I’m a millennial), But, when that suddenly came to a halt…it really shook me. I’d never experienced this kind of rejection in my career life so far (it really felt like getting dumped), and I really didn’t know how to handle these emotions.

I took a couple days to be sad, and then I really started to think about how I wanted to handle this situation. The truth is, this situation SUCKED. Mucho, big time. But, I also realized that this can either be a learning experience that I grow from, or something that I allow to drag me down. And I wasn’t willing to let that happen.

I was having conversation with a friend the other day about how I was in a rut and, and was feeling down on myself after this happened. I start to get stressed out towards the end of the year, questioning myself about the things I’ve accomplished in that last 300 ish days. Have I done enough? Did I improve myself enough? Did I do enough for others? Did I take the time to make my boyfriend and friends and family feel important? Did I spend enough good quality time with people? Did I improve at work? Am I happy?

Somebody sedate me.

My friend looked at me and said “Emma, that’s too much pressure to put on yourself,” and she’s completely right. If I look at what I have accomplished this year so far, in my LIFE so far, and I shouldn’t look at the fact that I didn’t go on luxurious trips or launch an empire or got let go from a job, but at the fact that at 25 years old I’ve found myself good at the work in the field that I am in, I have amazing friends and family, and I’m finally starting to find a balance of making time for myself, and the relationships in my life that are important to me. (I’m going to talk more about this in an upcoming blog). For one year, that isn’t even over yet, I’ll take it.

No it isn’t earth shattering or overly exciting, but for my mental health, tbh I’ll take it.

I guess the two points I’m getting to are:

A) Yes, 2018 has flown by insanely fast. But that’s okay! If you find yourself like me, stressing out about not accomplishing enough in a year, think about the things you DID accomplish. It doesn’t have to be launching a billion dollar lip kit line. It can be as simple as, you have maintained going to the gym three times a week, you cut a toxic relationship out of your life, or you donated clothing to a shelter or thrift shop. Take these small wins, because they’re a lot bigger then you think.

B) I’m back bitches! (For now, I mean who knows I may not post again until 2020)